Skanko In Chicago

Dear Chicago,

Seriously? Pick a temperature. 60 less than a week ago, 20 and icing/snowing today and yesterday. MAKE UP YOUR FUCKING MIND, how am I supposed to conquer you if I’m laying in bed puking.

P.S. -  I didn’t wanna say anything, to be nice, but Deep Dish pizza is really overrated.

P.P.S - Where are the people that wanna go out and drink on the weekends? I need a few of those.

Love,

CS.

Yay

Today was exciting. I got a Flip cam and some awesome wireless ipod speakers for the apartment because CIRCUIT CITY is closing. Their fail is my gain.

Also went down to Deluxe Tattoo and got all set up for tomorrow. It’s gonna be so nice to get tattooed. Its just what I need right now.

Hey, where have you gone?
You used to be the one
That we looked up to
Seemed like nothing
Could break you down
How high was your price?
Was it worth it?
Nothing in life is a sure bet anyway
You’re gone
Guess you weren’t here from the start
In the end
Its all a question of heart

Hey, where have you gone?
You used to be the one
That we looked up to
Seemed like nothing
Could break you down
How high was the price?
And was it worth it?
Nothing in life is a sure bet anyway
You’re gone
I guess you were here from the start
In the end
Its all a question of heart

Hey, where did it go?
Everything we fought for
And everything it meant,
maybe we were just naive
But I still believe
There are only a few things
That really belong
To me, who I am
Who I was
And who I wanna be
Who I wanna be

Hey, where have I gone?
I used to be the one
Looking for the hero
In some far off place
Blindly ever forward
Never knowing all along
The truth was right here
In my own song

- The Bouncing Souls.

Hopefully I’m getting tattooed this weekend. That makes me immensely happy.

BIG BROTHER

I just noticed a spy/security camera at the end of my hallway for the first time since moving in.

I don’t know how I feel about this. I don’t like the prospect of anyone (especially the building manager who has keys to my apt.) possibly knowing exactly when I am in and out of my apartment at all times.

I mean the guy has already been in here once without me being home. I think that is enough.

I should be excited that I’m here, and getting settled.

I’m not. I’m sick of answering questions about Chicago. I’m tired of telling people I’m from NJ. I’m tired of a lot of things. I guess this is “growing up”, but it feels more like going away. I never wanted to go away.  Maybe it feels more like fading away, abruptly. that makes no sense.

This place will be cool sure, the people were nice, hell I even went out to a bar last night alone, met some people, got drunk, and enjoyed it enough.

I still just wanna be back home, but as I’ve shown in the past I usually don’t know what’s best for me.